Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Good news to share!

I am so sorry for not updating my blog sooner. Needless to say a lot has been happening around here. I understand now why I was so sad when I wrote my last post. I was a bit weepy and sad because of all the hormones in my body. A week after that post I found out that I am pregnant! Yes, crazy stuff. A total miracle and so thankful to God for this little miracle inside of me. I was feeling so sad at the beginning of the school year because I truly didn't know what we were going to do since the adoption didn't work out. I was feeling so hopeless, and wondering just how I was going to get to be a mom. God had a plan all along, I was just a little impatient. So here we are today 15 weeks pregnant.
I don't want our story to become one of those cliche stories about how, I finally relaxed and got pregnant. I also do not want people to think that oh they were going to adopt so they finally got pregnant. Medically the right things happened at the right time and by chance I got pregnant. I could not be happier but I still feel the pain of all of those women who are still trying to achieve mommyhood. I thank God everyday for this blessing. I could not be happier or more excited to be a mommy. I am due around April 23, 2011.
Luckily I am able to see the specialist every two weeks, because he wants to keep an eye on my cervix because of all the fertility treatments. I am not complaining at all about getting pictures of the baby every two weeks, it is great! Hopefully, I will be able to post the pictures of our first sonongram visit.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Back to Work 2010-2011 School year

So today was our first day back to work. At least we got to meet at Old Country Buffet for breakfast at 9:00. Tomorrow I will have to be at work at 7:40, so today was great because I got to sleep in a little. The afternoon was a bit tough because the last time I was at work with all of my friends in the Tiki, we were preparing for the baby. I was sad to be starting my 16th year of teaching and still not being a "mom". So what can you do but go on and wait to see what tomorrow brings. Hopefully, better times on the horizon.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Sorry, sorry, sorry

I haven't written an update in a while for several reasons, one being I didn't know what to write. I have attached an explanation about what happened at the beginning of the summer. I am sharing this story so you are up to date. At this point, we have not discussed our next steps. I am still waiting for someone to knock on the door and hand me a baby. Just kidding.

Our trip...
I am going to try to explain a little about our journey down to New Orleans/Baton Rouge. We flew down on Sunday and actually got in about 30 minutes early. Eric and I rented a car and decided to go into the French Quarter for dinner. We ate and then started our drive to Baton Rouge. On the way to Baton Rouge we called our social worker. We told her we were on our way to Baton Rouge and she said that she would call in the morning. Eric and I arrived at our hotel, which was nice. It had a desk and a table instead of a sofa. I was thinking that I should ask to change rooms the next day because I wanted somewhere else to with the baby other than the bed and uncomfortable chairs.
The next morning Eric and I woke up, and I made a waffle because I didn’t think I would be able to make one with the baby the next day. When Eric and I went back to our room to shower, the social worker called. She wanted us to come to the agency because the baby was not going to be released from the hospital and she needed to tell us something. So we headed to agency to find out what could be wrong with the baby. We knew that the baby was small; we were told the baby was taken early because the baby’s abdomen was small. We were also told that the baby was in with drawl from the antidepressants from the mother. This was not a concern because lots of people take antidepressants. Eric and I were trying to think about all the possible things that could be wrong with the baby. From the picture of the baby, physically she looked fine. However, in the picture you could not tell how small she was because there was nothing in the picture to compare.
So when Eric and I arrived at the agency we finally meet the social worker, and she tells us that the nurse in the NICU said that the baby’s head was small. The small head is not normal because usually the head of any baby is much larger than the rest of their body. So this baby has a small body and a small head. We were told that they were doing test on the baby but those results would not be back for a week. The social worker tries to contact the nurse but she cannot be reached. We leave the agency knowing that when the nurse calls back they will set up a time for a conference call to take place. So Eric and I leave the agency and go explore a little around Baton Rouge. At this point we think that the tests are going to reveal whether or not the baby is going to be healthy or not.
As we sit down around 3:00 to eat something, the agency calls us back and says that the nurse is calling back in ten minutes for us to do our conference call. So we go back to the agency to wait for the call. Eric took the lead with the questions, he was amazing. He has been amazing this whole time. He is my rock. Anyway, we got the nurse on a conference call and Eric started asking questions about the test that were going to be run on the baby. We were told that the baby was not healthy and the tests would only reveal if the cause of the small head was a virus. So there would be no way to tell if the small head size could lead to cognitive problems later in life. The nurse also told us that the baby was in with drawl from opiates, which would not have been in the antidepressants the birthmom was taking. So we finished the phone call with the nurse and told the agency we had a lot to think about, and we left. Eric and I talked and we didn’t feel comfortable taking a sick baby home. We understand that children get sick and they are not perfect but we wanted to at least start with a healthy baby.
We met with the social worker on Tuesday morning at the agency. The agency also had another social worker sit in the meeting with us. We told them that this was not the baby for us and they said that that was fine. The agency has two other couples already who may take the baby. The agency has 180 days to get half of our money back to us. They have all of our money, and we do not have a baby.
That is pretty much all that has happened over the past few days.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

The chair, the chair, the chair


I am so excited to report that we have a chair for the nursery. We have somewhere to sit and feed, rock and hopefully sleep. The chair is so pretty it matches the walls perfectly. Here is a picture. The nursery is really coming together. I just have to finish painting the Jelly cabinet and we need a dresser and a little side table next to the chair. Then the nursery will be complete.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Furniture going, going, gone...

I am happy to report that the big dresser made its way to the consignment store this weekend. So the baby's room has a crib, and a chest of drawers in the closet. I put contact paper down in the drawers this weekend and I also started painting the Jelly cabinet. So the Jelly cabinet is white and the inside frame on the door will be green to match the wall color. We will also put the baby's initial on the door when we have a baby and a name. Hopefully, we will have a dresser in the room soon. I am actually going to register this Tuesday. So I will let you know how that goes. I feel like we had a very productive weekend, which makes me very happy.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Moving and grooving

Hi all, sorry for the lack of updates. I thought I would post and tell you what I have done to the nursery. I am actively looking for bedding, I have two ideas that I like but I am not sure. I moved everything that was in the baby's closet out of of the closet so we can move the chest into the closet. I need to take the cabinet downstairs to sand and paint. I also need to get the other dresser out of the room and figure out a new dresser. I framed the pictures that I wanted to frame and they look so cute. A Leo Leonni picture of mice, Frog and Toad and Toot and Puddle. I love the way they look. I am excited about my progress. I will keep you all posted.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Had to call and get an update

So last week I was in Chicago for a conference and it was awesome! I was so tired when I got home I think I finally feel back to normal. I have done about 50 loads of laundry and switched my closet from Winter to Summer. One task that I hate doing.
Back to the update...which is really not an update but it did make me feel a little better. I was feeling anxious lately about waiting especially since Mother's Day is around the corner. And yes I am so thankful that I have a wonderful mom to spend the day with and a great stepmom, it still doesn't take away the pain of wanting to celebrate being a mom. Anyway, I called down to Baton Rouge to see what is going on with the Adoption. It has been 5 months and we haven't even been shown to any expectant mothers. So the social worker reassured me that there are just so few expectant moms. I feel good knowing that the agency is picky and that they want emoms who are serious and healthy mentally and physically. I wish I had more to update but that's all I got right now. I just know I will have good news soon.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

So now the text for the blog update

Hi,
Sorry I have been slacking. It has been hard because I was very excited about the nursery but then I got busy and haven't been working on the room. As you can see the room is painted and I love the color. The crib is in the room but I think we have to move it to another wall. The dresser that I'm going to paint will need to go on the wall where the crib is currently. The dresser needs to be painted white and I have not started that project yet. The chest from Priscilla is painted but I want to put one more coat on it. The chest is green like the walls because we had so much of that paint left over. The chest is going to go in the closet for storage so I thought it could be green. The dresser project will start when I get back from Chicago. I leave on Saturday and I will be Wed.
I have been busy and will continue to be busy in order to pass the time. The blog is bitter sweet because we do not have any news to share. We have been waiting almost 5 months and haven't even been shown to a birth mother. So I have been bummed about that. I am fine most days and think about work and everything else going on in my life but sometimes I realize that another day has gone by with no call. So I am praying big, that I get a call before Mother's Day. That would be wonderful. But if we don't it will be ok. I am thinking about calling the agency in May and just checking on things, if we don't hear anything.
So that is my update, and I will try to be better about blogging when I get back from Chicago.

At Last...I am updating the blog


Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Wow! I've been a slacker

So sorry I haven't updated, but there has not been any news and it is making me a little grumpy. I am working on the nursery and that is going well. I will post a picture very soon. Now I am having a furniture placement issue.
We put the crib together this past weekend and it looks so nice in the room. I was able to find 12x12 photo frames for the calendar pictures that I have been saving since 2001. So glad I saved the calendar because it has three awesome pictures of Frog and Toad, Toot and Puddle, and a Leo Leonni picture. I am not sure if I spelled Leonni right, oh well.
I keep praying that we get shown soon to a birthmother. I will try to be more exciting when I write next time.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Ok, lets try this link...


http://www.beaconhouseadoption.com/domestic_adoption.html
Just a little update, we have the chest in the house and it has to be repainted. We will hopefully get it done in the next few weeks. I have found a few places in the room that need the paint touched up. We have to move the bookcase out of the room but we have to find another place to put it.
On another note, I just want to say thanks again to all those who have contacted me about the blog. Your thoughts, prayers and advice are so appreciated.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

The link doesn't work

Hi,
I am trying to fix the link, but I'm having trouble copying and pasting.
I did get another call from the agency but they just wanted to know our budget again, but they found it. So yesterday after work I called them back and got all excited, but they had already found the information by the time I spoke to them. I thought for sure it was a call about being shown to a expectant mother. I found out that you do not call them birth mothers until they actually decide to make an adoption plan. So before that they are expectant moms or potential birth moms. Learn something new everyday. Anyway, needless to say I am bummed about not getting a call about being shown. But I will have to continue to be patient even if it kills me:)
Thanks for reading.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Just thought I would share some info

Here is a link to our adoption agency, they just changed their website. I thought you might be interested in finding out a bit more about the place where we are going to be sending all that money:) Just kidding. Check it out if you feel like it.
www.beaconhouseadoption.com/domestic

Sunday, March 14, 2010

The painting is all finished:)

So I just got finished painting the nursery. We are happy with the green, both of us feel better about it. I am thinking that one coat of paint is going to do, but we will see. Next weekend I pick up the chest from Priscilla. I am trying to figure out how we will lay out all the furniture once we get it all. I think I have a good idea, we'll see once we have a chair/rocker.
Last night we went to dinner at PF Chang's on a much needed date. We had such a good time. I think we really should make an effort to get out as much as we can since we don't have to get a babysitter. I also enjoy being able to sleep in on weekends for the time being.
To change the subject just one more time...a fellow blogger came home from Korea yesterday with their son. The whole trip to Korea and bringing their son home was documented on their blog. The story was very inspirational to those of us who are still waiting for our little ones. Hopefully our wait won't be too long. The next couple of months will be busy with traveling so that should keep my mind off the wait, a teeny tiny bit.

Monday, March 8, 2010

mixed thoughts

This post has a lot of different topics. I really just have a couple of random things that I would like to share. First, let me say that I am so thankful for the support of all my family and friends who are reading the blog. I really appreciate the support. The wait for us to have a child has been so long and still continues to be a journey. Along this long journey we have given up a lot. A lot of time, Doctors appointments, surgery, shots, acupuncture and lots more. We have given up dreams, a child that would be a combination of the two of us, the loss of a baby growing in my belly, the loss of more than one child. Ok, enough about that stuff.
On Saturday I started painting the nursery. We decided to go with green for the room. In the natural light we like it a lot, at night with the lights on in the room, it is really green. But we are happy with it for the most part. We are going to finish painting it soon.
Sunday was a great day, Baba and I went up to see baby Alexa. She was a month old on Sunday. We got some wonderful photos and baby Alexa is so cute. I got to feed her and hold her lots.
On the way home Baba and I stopped by Priscilla's house to see the chest that she has offered us for the baby's room. I am so thankful for the furniture, we are going to paint it white to match the crib.
So that pretty much wraps it up.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

So I got an email yesterday

Yesterday at work I got an email around 10:30 a.m. from our social worker in Baton Rouge and it said she had some questions for me. I didn't really think that she had a birth mother for us but just happy to be contacted from her. So I called her right away and found out that she couldn't find our application. When we applied back in November or December, I can't remember, we applied on line and payed the application fee online. When I called down to make sure they had everything they needed, they had the payment but no application. I guess the online application didn't go through. I printed out the application and faxed it down to Baton Rouge. So they have had our application but the social worker couldn't find it right then. I asked her to call me back when she found it.
So yesterday afternoon she called back to say she had everything that she needed. So I feel good that everything is in place and that she is so good about contacting us. I wish I had some more exciting news but that's for now. We did purchase paint and are going to start painting the nursery today. I will let you know how it looks the color is called Crisp Green. A good gender neutral color. Baba says if it is a girl we can do pink accents and a boy brown accents. Either way as long as there is a baby in the room I will be happy.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Houston we have a crib


We purchased a crib today. A few days ago my mom said that Pottery Barn had the white crib that I wanted and it was on sale. So today before she went to work she checked to see if they still had it and they did. I will attempt to attach a picture of the crib, but I am new at all this stuff. I am so excited to actually have a crib because that means there will be a baby someday in the crib. I was with my grandfather when my mom told me about the crib so I told him that we are adopting. He was so cute and so excited for us. So the next steps for the nursery are to hopefully paint next weekend and move the bookcases that are in the room. One bookcase is going downstairs and one is going into the office. Oh, and I guess I should take down the beer poster that is hanging in the room. We have a baby picture in the room too, a stork carrying a little bundle in its mouth. That was our first baby item purchased by my mom. I guess I will take some pictures of the nursery coming together. We need to buy a mattress for the crib, one that meets Baba's approval.

Monday, February 22, 2010

First comment!!!!!

I must say a big thank you to my cousin Lauren for her sweet comment. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful family and friends. I know that I could not have made it the past five years without the support of family and friends. This has been such a long journey and appreciate all the people who have been by my side to cheer me on over the years. I read a post tonight on one of the chat boards that I read and the girl spelled her name wrong in her adoption profile. So even though I put our last name in the book, at least I spelled it correctly. I think the stress of it all really gets to people. I have had so many positive thoughts and comments about the adoption in the past two days, it makes me so happy.
Since I think I am getting sick, I'm going to keep this short and go rest. Thanks again for reading the blog and keep the comments coming.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Accepting comments (but only good ones)

So I have now created a blog, figured out how to enable comments and have one follower. This is a whole new world. I can't wait until I have pictures to share on my blog. I love reading other adoption blogs because it makes me feel a little less alone. Since I am the only one in my circle of friends that is adopting or has adopted there is a lot of information to learn. I like to read about people who are waiting like me and success stories that give me hope.
I did receive an email from our social worker here in MD and she is in the process of finalizing the home study report and she will send on down. Even though the final copy is not at the other agency yet it will not prevent us from being shown to birth mothers.
And that's all the info I have today and TGIF;)

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

3 to 18 months sounds more like 10 years to life

The title of this blog is a bit of a joke, waiting for the adoption time line reminds me a little like a prison sentence. How long is this going to take? 3 to 18 months is what the social worker told me today about how long it will take to get placed with a baby. That is different then a match, a placement is when the baby is actually in your possession. In a perfect world I would get to be a mother before Mother's Day, but that would be pretty amazing. So I will go on hoping and praying.
I did receive a call from the social worker today, she left me a message and I called her back after work. Yes, I said after work, we finally got back today. It was so nice to see the kids.
So back to the phone call. The social worker said that she received the book and loved it. So that was nice to hear. As far as, my mistake with putting our last name in the book I can only hope that is makes us seem more human to the potential birth mother. There are 17 families also waiting. There is no list that we get to climb because the budget, birth mother's desires for an adoptive family and some other stuff I guess determine if we will be shown to the the birth mom. Before we are shown to the birth mother we will be contacted by the social worker and asked told as much information about the birth mother that is available. Then we will decide if we want to be shown. Three families are shown to a birth mother and she selects from those three, or keeps looking if she doesn't like any of those families. So right now the agency doesn't have any birth mothers. The slow months are January, February and March, so hopefully it will get super busy in the spring. And of course with all the snow around here we are really in for a boom of births in the next nine months.
So for now we just wait and wait and wait. I am going to try to paint the baby's room and get it ready for the baby that will someday call the room home. I found some paint colors that I like and may go and get some samples to put on the wall and compare.
Please feel free to ask any questions that you may have about the process.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Finally Back to work tomorrow

Well the vacation is coming to an end which is great! We had off today which was unexpected. I know things are going to be so crazy when we go back. We will be in school until August. My only hope is that we get a baby before then and I won't be in school all summer.
I called the social worker today and left a message on her cell phone. I asked her to call me back and didn't receive a call back. I asked her how many families are waiting which is what the office girl was suppose to ask her the other day. I have not heard back from either of them. I also wanted to make sure that they got the book and were able to black out our last name. I will try the office girl on the phone tomorrow. So needless to say I am not happy about this, but it could be worse. So hopefully some news tomorrow. And hopefully I will be able to think about other stuff since we are getting back to work.
Thanks for listening:)

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

When will it ever stop snowing?

Soooo tired of the snow! On a happy note, I was able to call down to Louisiana and contact the agency about the mistake in our book. We put our last name, not too bright. Hopefully it will not be too big of a deal. I think they are use to running things slowly down there because the Social worker up here hadn't heard back from them about our homestudy. But she did get a phone call so hopefully the homestudy will be down there and in perfect shape. We are still a waiting family regardless of the fact that they don't have the final draft of the homestudy. So maybe I will call at the end of the week and see what is going on in Baton Rouge.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Meeting Baby Alexa

Today was an awesome day, I got to be the first one to meet baby Alexa. She is so cute and I held her for two hours. I am so happy for Lauren and Mike. The drive up to the Towson was a little tricky but I made it up and back safe and sound. The day ended with a trip to the grocery store which was crazy because we are suppose to get more snow.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Day 1

We will see if this works. I wanted to start blogging so that I could comment on our adoption journey. The roller coaster ride might be more fun with more passengers. So here goes nothing.